The kind of religion that god requires, and will accept, does not consist in weak, dull, and lifeless "wouldings" - those weak inclinations that lack convictions - that raise us but a little above indifference. God, in his word, greatly insists that we be in good earnest, fervent in spirit, and that our hearts be engaged vigorously in our religion: "Be fervent in spirit, serving the Lord" (Rom. 12: 11, modified KJV).
Last week on several occasions I identified in myself some not so lovely attitudes. Selfishness, small mindedness, negativity. I have been full of 'woulding' and lacking greatly in fervent spirit. As painful as it is, I am so grateful for the insight the Holy Spirit offers into my own condition. Without it, I would be lost in my own darkness and completely unaware of it.
I feel the lethargy of waking from a deep and dreamless sleep. My heart and mind are eager to embrace a life vigorously engaged in God, but my spiritual muscles are out of shape and undisciplined. I long to hear God's voice, I long to worship Him wholeheartedly, I am eager to learn from His Word and grow. My prayer is that He would take my 'weak inclinations' and light a fire in my soul for Him. Passion. Strong conviction. Grounded Truth. Worship in spirit and truth. A walk that is worthy.
The nature of human beings is to be inactive unless influenced by some affection: love or hatred, desire, hope, fear, etc. These affections are the 'spring of action,' the things that set us moving in our lives, that move us to engage in activities.
God, my heart longs for You. Fuel that longing with the power of Your Holy Spirit to set me into motion. Move me toward You, compel me by Your love, and help me to engage in a life lived for you.
