Striving

It's been over a month since I've posted here. I'd like to say it's because I've been so busy, but the truth is that I've not had much to say. So easily I go from in the depths of Truth and inspirational relationship with God to wandering and meandering through life again. What happened? Well, I'll confess. While coasting on the heels of a great revival in my spirit, I lost sight of my sweet Savior. Silly sheep that I am, I allowed fear and insecurity to creep in and I forgot the strength and compassion of my Shepherd. I thought I had it under control, and what do I get? Striving. Discontent. Loss of joy.

Let me just say here, that is a tough thing to own up to after the past few months I've had. Truly, I am ashamed of my weak will and sin.

The good news is that my Shepherd loves me, and although I may have lost sight of Him, He never lost sight of me. Whew!

Today I did what anyone who is striving ought to do. I quit, waved the white flag, sat down, and prayed.

I don't have all the answers. He does.
I don't know what the next few months will bring. He does.
I can't do everything. He can.

Okay, so this sheep in all humility is now happily following her Shepherd again. Truly, it is a much better way of living.

Here are a few of my all time favorites that I plan to dwell on the next few days. They certainly lend a little perspective to a wandering sheep.

Psalm 16: 5,6, 11
You, O Lord, are the portion of my inheritance and my cup; You maintain mylot. The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; Yes, I have a good inheritance. You will show me the path of like; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Psalm 25: 1,2a,4,5
To You, O Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, I trust in You...Show me Your ways, O Lord; Teach me Your paths. Lead me in Your Truth and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation; on You I wait all the day.

Psalm 37:3-7
Trust in the Lord, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.